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banyak betul masalah melanda now. love, friendship,, it depends on me how to manage it. aku malu nak ngs-ngs sebab love. u know, when dah selalu sangat menangis buat org lain menyampah. but that is me. it just me expressing what i felt at that time. when i have this some kind of trouble hitting my love life, i will cry. lebih kurang macam option. i cry, i talk shit, or i hurt my self, eventually. i guess cry is more simpler than the others. if i talk shit, people will label me as pompuan with no manners. if i hurt my self, (eg punch the wall) it'll hurt n sometimes leave scars. i hurt my self before, and hoping that i wont do it again in this current relationship. but i guess same je. kalau tak tumbuk dinding, menagis. tak menangis, carut. tapi aku tak dibenarkan mencarut. so, option left menumbuk or even menangis. entahlah. sometimes i hate myself. so, sape sape yang nak benci aku, fine. u'll never know that i hate my self more.